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Tuesday at work passed quickly, we were quiet and I had time to reflect on both what had happened last night and also what I needed to say to Sarah.With Clare, it was now all out in the open. I would carry on seeing her, but I knew I needed to wait and see what happens with Alan before I considered the next step.My more immediate concern was my girlfriend, Sarah. I desperately wanted to keep her as my girlfriend but I was not sure that was now possible.Would she forgive me for cheating on her?Even if she did, there was no way that she was going to let me have two girlfriends.I spent the day running every connotation through my head. What I should say, what I should do?None were good. I knew I had been a fool but I wanted to get to know Clare. That attraction I had for her. All day, I desperately looked for a way out from the hole my lust and cock, had dug for me.******I arrived at Sarah?s house at six-fifteen, just a little late, with the thought to tell Sarah everything and even fall on my sword begging for forgiveness.*I knew I would be entirely in her hands. That we had something good going that I didn?t want to give up, though I guessed Sarah would, as soon as I told her the truth.*With my stomach rolling, and my body feeling decidedly shaky, Sarah let me in. I gave her a quick kiss and then a warm smile. I was nervous as to how this evening might go and I knew I should be. I could only think it was going to be bad or even terrible, and I could not see any other outcome.But I hoped!As I stepped into the hall, as I always do, I looked at Sarah. She was wearing a high-necked dark red tee shirt probably to cover any love bites that were left on her and a short black skirt. That was new. She looked lovely and I told her so.With guilt surrounding me, I said hello to her mum and dad, Barbara and James. They were nice people, neither quite forty having had Sarah at only twenty-one.Sarah?s mum owned the florist shop in the village and her dad was an aerospace engineer. Their work often took them away from home and during these times it fell to Sarah to look after her younger brother Gary, her only sibling, who was only seven and a half.After some small talk with Barbara and James where they mention that later that night they were going out for a meal with friends and Sarah, and therefore we would be doing the babysitting tonight.Gary was now really becoming his own little person, having grown a lot in the six months since I first met him. In all honestly, I did not mind babysitting.I only wanted to spend time with Sarah, try to reconnect and explain my actions. I knew that would be bursa escort (https://hatchresources.com/) an impossible task, and it was a conversation that I was not looking forward to.After Barbara and James left us to get ready for their night out, we broke out the plastic building bricks. Sarah, Gary, but mainly me, dug in and started to build things that matched our imaginations. I was quite impressed with my rocket ship but Gary dismissed it saying, ?It doesn't have big enough engines to fly.? He had a good point.Sarah had tried to build a horse which I thought was a hard thing to attempt and in all honestly, the finished article looked a little square, but I wisely didn?t say anything other than it was very good.Gary built a car and used the available miniature people to make it look real. It was very car-like and quite impressive, with wheels and an opening boot and bonnet.At a quarter to eight, Sarah?s parents said their goodbyes and reminded Sarah that Gary had to be in bed by eight-thirty, much to Gary?s disgust. We carried on playing and my rocket ship gained much bigger engines, much to Gary?s delight. His car gained a trailer and Sarah?s horse gained an enclosure.At eight-fifteen, Gary was sent to get ready for bed and suddenly I felt very nervous, as I knew the moment was rapidly approaching when I needed to talk with Sarah.*It was the moment when she would kick me out, and tell me that I was stupid, an idiot and much worse.As I sat there, I still really did not know what to say to Sarah, but I did know she deserved better.It was nearer a quarter to nine by the time Gary was in bed. Sarah went in to check on him and then he insisted I had to do the same.*When I returned Sarah was sitting on the settee. She smiled and then teased me slightly opening her legs to show her white panties before closing them again. This was new and something she would not have done a few weeks ago. I knew it was my influence on her. I smiled back, as I took my position next to Sarah on the white settee and we cuddled.But inside I was a mess.?How are the love bites,? I guardedly asked having wanted to know since my arrival. ?I hope they do not hurt too much. Sorry, I got carried away.?Sarah lifted her tee shirt to show me and as she did so I noticed she had a very lacy white bra on, almost transparent in places. That was also new.Some of the marks had faded but there were two very dark ones just above each breast.?Sorry,? I said again, but Sarah caught me by surprise when she said, ?Actually, I don?t mind them. It was different and exciting, but not something I want every time; though I do want you to mark me again bursa escort bayan (https://hatchresources.com/) sometime in the future.?I smiled, but it was a weak smile, as I was not sure there was a future.I did like Sarah?s answer, and once again I realised that she was changing as a woman and I thought that perhaps it was part of her sexual awakening. After all, she had only been with one person before me.?You can count on that.? I tried to sound enthusiastic.?I will nibble you again sometime,? I then added not wanting to use the word bite because of the guilt I was still carrying.The next thing Sarah said to me simply stunned me.?How did your date go last night??I was shocked!I was lost for words. How did she know??Come on, I need to know what happened. I know it was a girl you saw, Clare you said her name was."?And???Yes, we do need to talk!?*Those dreaded words, all rattled off in quick succession.I knew this was always going to be difficult, but that prepared talk that was in my head had now, somewhat, unravelled.Sarah just sat there looking at me. She didn?t look cross, and she didn?t look annoyed but to me, it felt something much worse.?Yes, her name is Clare,? I muttered. Sarah didn?t react, she was waiting.?She is also eighteen and I met her some time ago, long before you."There was still no reaction from Sarah."Yes we have slept together in the past but she has never been my girlfriend as such and at the moment she has a long-term boyfriend. They have been going out for nearly one and half years.?*As I quietly spoke, I knew I was being a little economic with the truth. But it was also true to say that every word that I had whispered, was not a lie.Sarah looked back at me, her eyes now a little red. I had never before seen Sarah angry or even upset and even now, though tearful, she seemed still in complete control.Guilt swept across me, once again.?You seem to know a lot about her,? Sarah then said, but not spitefully, more business-like. She was still in full control, but I was waiting for the onslaught. That burst of aggression.It was what I deserved.?I know some, but not a lot, about her. Clare is a bit mysterious and yesterday was the first time I have really talked to her in years though we did bump into one another in Majorca.?I knew again I was being a little economical with the truth, but I was also not lying. I wondered if Sarah saw straight through me but I wanted to push on and get this over with. I knew I was being horrible to Sarah, my loving girlfriend but I also knew what I wanted and to get that, I had to do this. Even if the risk was Sarah and me breaking up!Of course, escort bursa (https://hatchresources.com/) there was no guarantee I would ever be with Clare again and I needed to get this across to Sarah. I went on, deservedly feeling a little more than, uncomfortable.?Sarah, you are my girlfriend and I have no intention of breaking up with you. We are good for one another. Everyone tells us that and I want us to carry on seeing each other as we have been. Even get closer if possible, but I also want to occasionally see Clare.?In the end, it came out in a rush, but I thought, there I have said it!I waited. I waited for the expected outburst from Sarah but she remained silent, and maybe that was even worse.After nearly a minute, I could not take the silence anymore. I started to tell Sarah a little about Clare, all the time sitting close to her, keeping a hand on her knee trying to reassure her. I did not want to break up with her but I knew that was out of my hands.Sarah chose not to say anything, but she was listening to every word I said. As I spoke, I just hoped.?As I mentioned, I want you as my girlfriend but I would also like to see Clare. I want her to become our friend. Even if she breaks up with her boyfriend, it is unlikely she would want to go out with me. She said as much when we talked last night, she just wants to be single and sleep around.??How did you get onto that subject last night?? Sarah asked.*That was a good question I thought, so I paused before answering. If possible, I needed to make it sound better than it was. But I didn't want to lie.?Clare asked me for advice.? That was true, though it had been mainly on a different subject. ?Her boyfriend is getting serious and she realised she is not ready for marriage, but she has not decided what to say to him. There is a chance they could break up, but she is not sure. It is her decision. She is just thinking about it.? I was sure the irony of those words was not lost on Sarah.Sarah looked up at me and I just looked back at her before deciding to give her another cuddle. I was surprised that she did not reject me, so I said, ?I do not want to lose you, Sarah, but I am also attracted to Clare.?*There I put it completely out there!I knew I was an idiot and much worse. But I was running on raw emotion and being steered by my cock.Sarah looked at me again, she seemed calm and I then released that she was not going to hit me, shout at me or throw me out.Instead, I knew she was going to say something significant and for the first time, I thought she was about to use the L-word.But she didn?t.It turned out to be something more poignant than that.?I never told you this, David, but it seems like the right time to tell you now,? Sarah said still in a calm and even voice. ?When we first got together I was in a dark place, a very dark place. I had not even left the house in six weeks.?